Collecting My Decisions, Then Implement
For the last few weeks since …when Mercury went retrograde I have been delving in my past, digging up old issues, ideas, and habits. Finding out where they came from, if they have value in moving me forward, and if they don’t chucking and changing them for something better feeling. All of this more or less, tapped, rode, thought, or discussed with friends enough so that then I would blog about it to get thoroughly versed in the new me. While I actually learn to implement the new stuff till it replaces my old standard habits.
Case in point, my youngest was let out of boot camp late this evening, because one of the other kids did not cooperate and do his part. So all of the kids had to do his stuff with him, after doing their own, allowing me to take home one very tired, aggravated young man, ticked because the other child would not own up to “his” responsibilities.
We get home, he gets his two of his outside chores done while I am giving my last lesson of the day, then promptly disappears. For me to discover him, in the house fast asleep on the chair, extremely drowsy and agitated at me for disturbing him, thankfully my knee did not have to twist, bend, or hurt(knee jerk response) to remind me of my old habit of getting angry. I caught myself when I walked back in the third time in thirty minutes “think this through” “be assertive”” stand your ground honestly” “let him know where you are coming from in his own words”.
So I replayed to him, his disgust over the student that made them do his stuff to. Cut my checking on him to twice in 15 minutes, instead of nag, nag, nag, to be pleasantly pleased to find all of the stuff done, and done right, with him in bed by 9:30. I am so proud of him and of myself for listening, learning, changing, and trusting myself to have all the right answers. Doubly impressed with my tapping phrase for today “Why should I worry, Things always turn out for Me! Life is good and meant to be lived fully!